Train station

I'm currently at a train station in new York waiting for my train. Well let's tell a little story.. I was supposed to be in a hotel in NYC tonight but decided to take a train early at 3am so I didn't have to pay for the hotel. So God had a great purpose in me waiting at the train station tonight.

So I was sitting with Caesar (husband of one of the Dominican women I've been working with this last week) I saw this beautiful girl come in crying her eyes out. So of course, I asked Caesar to give me a minute and I felt like I needed to talk to her.

So I went over, asked her if she was okay and she said yes - so I asked her if I could pray for her - wouldn't hurt anyone and I would really like to. So we prayed, she was crying, clearly really upset. We were Talking about how much the Lord loves her, how much He could use this to better her, that He never said it was easy but that He would walk with us and love us fearlessly along the way. That's where the peace is, and it's a joy like none other.

So after, I really didn't want to pry into her life and ask all these questions - none my business. But I just wanted to make sure she felt cared for and safe, like the Lord cares for her and wants to keep her safe. So after talking to her for a little bit, I got to share a little bit about my last few years. About how I was doing everything the World says is great and fun and was SO unhappy and empty. But that the Lord came into my life in a way so real to me, and showed me how much He loves me personally. That it used to be works, rules to me. But That he used everything in my last for where I'm supposed to be now. Well we talked, and she completely understood. She kept thanking me saying I was such a good person and I assured her (what I felt like 10 times because I know I'm not haha) that there's NOTHING good in me. The reasons I'm writing this is because I don't want to forget this conversation so I can pray for her too.

But she had to go, she has my number and name - God is GOOD! if I was in the hotel like I was supposed to be, I would have never gotten to talk to her and share how much the Lord adores her. Pray for her?

The little girls in the house where I'm staying are the sweetest blessings.

I went down stairs, and they had folded all my clothes and made my bed. It just made my night.

The little girl marinel talked to Jonathan and Gerald (president and vice president of casa juvenil) and basically told him "did you know carolina is coming to santo domingo to work with casa juvenil!" hahah. Apparently I'm going! I was sharing my heart with Jonathan and were all praying that If the lord opens the door, well I'll be on the next plane. The Dominican republic is my home. God is good.

Talking with Gerald last night about missions, what I feel and who the lord is to me - he was like "you don't think like normal Americans, I saw you in the church... Missionary? Yeah."


God knows my heart.

Oh my Gooooodness god is good! I'm in physical pain from smiling so much, hahaha. My face is sore!

God has me here for every single one of those kids from casa juvenil. They have blessed my life more than I can describe, working every day with them, God knows my heart and brought them to me! Haha.

Today we went to a church in Maryland where they did an INCREDIBLE service. The spirit was moving in those kids to the point they were passing out (spiritually) on stage. I had never seen anything like it in real life. 5 people received Christ!!! God is so good. So good. I'm the only translator they have most of the time, and I'm staying in the Host house with 11 Dominican girls. It's been a life changing experience.

"Faith must be tested, because it can only become your intimate possession through conflict...faith is absolute trust in God--trust that could never imagine that He would forsake us." Oswald Chambers

The grand weaver

Only if you are willing to pray sincerely for God’s will to be done and are willing to live the life apportioned to you will you see the breathtaking view of God that He wants you to have, through the windows He has placed in your life. A heart in close communion with God helps carry you through the pain, beyond the power of mere words.

Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right,
persevering, and steadfast spirit within me. Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and uphold me with a
willing spirit. (Psalm 51:10, 12 AMP)

Behold, I have refined you, but not as silver; I have tried
and chosen you in the furnace of affliction. For My own sake, for My own sake, I do it [I refrain and do
not utterly destroy you]; for why should I permit My name to be polluted and profaned [which it would be if the Lord completely
destroyed His chosen people]? And I will not give My glory to another [by permitting
the worshipers of idols to triumph over you]. Listen to Me, O Jacob, and Israel, My called [ones]: I am He;
I am the First, I also am the Last. Yes, My hand has laid the foundation of the earth, and My
right hand has spread out the heavens; when I call to them, they stand forth
together [to execute My decrees]. Come near to me and listen to this: I have not spoken in
secret from the beginning; from the time that it happened, I was there. And now the
Lord God has sent His Spirit in and with me. (Isaiah 48:10-13, 16 AMP)

We put no stumbling block in anyone's path, so that our ministry will not be discredited. Rather, as servants of God we commend ourselves in every way: in great endurance; in troubles, hardships and distresses; in beatings, imprisonments and riots; in hard work, sleepless nights and hunger; in purity, understanding, patience and kindness; in the Holy Spirit and in sincere love; in truthful speech and in the power of God; with weapons of righteousness in the right hand and in the left; through glory and dishonor, bad report and good report; genuine, yet regarded as impostors; known, yet regarded as unknown; dying, and yet we live on; beaten, and yet not killed; sorrowful, yet always rejoicing; poor, yet making many rich; having nothing, and yet possessing everything.

2 Corinthians 6:3-10

La experiencia no es lo que le pasa al hombre, es lo que el hombre hace con lo que le pasa.