you hold me now

Yesterday, after playing at the playground with some awesome people, I went to frontline. I wasn't expecting anything to hit me, because I came in so late - funny how God does what he wants, WHEN he wants. I walked into the auditorium, and sat in a seat by myself. [the seats by my lovely friends were taken, and i didn't want to interrupt]

Todd philips started asking these questions :

1. have you ever given your biggest strength to God?

2. Have you given your biggest weakness/temptation to God?

3. Have you surrendered your most meaningful relationships to God?

4. Have you surrendered your most meaningful possession to God?

5. Have you handed your biggest dream to God?

all of those questions are wonderful, but the last one really struck a nerve.

i want to serve in missions for the rest of my life, more than ANYTHING. In doing that, I'm spreading God's Word, not my own. I want him to lead me. I want him to provide. I've been given a chance to prayerfully go to Costa Rica for 9 months when I'm 18, but money has been very tight lately. I was feeling very overwhelmed and stressed by the fact I need 7000+ dollars in two years, and I don't have a job. Last night, while we were praying, I handed my dream of missions over to him, where it should rightfully be.

this is how cool God is.

This morning I get a call from the manager of Old Navy. I submitted an application there over two months ago, and never heard back from them, so I thought it was a no-go. She said she reviewed my application and was very interested in hiring me. Tomorrow I'm going in to fill out all of my paper work and learn the ropes.

If thats not an answer to prayer, I don't know what is.