Hmmm.

Warning : I know I'm gonna get crap for this, haha. I know its cheesy, but I don't really care.

I write letters to my future husband, just talking. Like, today I prayed for you. etc etc. You could think its totally stupid, and I wasn't so sure I would even write this on here. But on my wedding day, I'll give them to him.

But I can honestly tell you I've fallen for someone I don't know yet. Who knows! maybe I do know him. But only the Lord knows that. Its silly, but I don't feel any need in looking, because I believe the Lord's got that person for me already, and all I've gotta do is sit back and relax. I mean, If I picked the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with, I really don't think I'm qualified to do that. (please review past relationships.) I constantly get the, "but if you're not looking.. how in the heck are you going to find him." See, I'm not.

Its been a big problem for me, actually. Looking. I spend more time searching and less time trusting. No makeup or hair or perfect outfit will bring my husband to me. God will. Its been something I needed to realize again, cause I'm a girl. And my heart tends to be silly sometimes.

Dating :

Very few know why I don't like it. I've made a promise, and as hard as it is to cut my heart off, I said I wouldn't date in high school. I have dated people already while being in high school, but because of that, I just saw they[the relationship] were just immature and overrated. (note: not all are, over the past year i've witnessed some awesome Christ centered, mature high school relationships. You know who you are. :))

Every single person you flirt with, [if God has this for them] Will have a spouse. Now, Remember that while you are flirting with them. I don't know about you, but it makes me feel disgusting.

Wether you're a guy or girl, think about the possibility of getting married.

Girls : we get all excited, Insert new last name here, dress shopping, etc. But can you look at your fiancee straight in the eyes and say, I waited for you, and my heart belongs to you. Its hard to look at a lot of the guys we know and say.. really? there's no hope. They're immature and really, not someone I'd ever see being a God fearing man. WELL WAIT THAN. Done. Period. If he's not what you want, Don't settle for anything less than you deserve. Look for Christ, not the cute one with flippy hair. They're there, I promise. If you're looking for a Man that loves the Lord, Be someone that man will be attracted to. If you want him to love the lord, You've gotta love the Lord even more. Not because you're doing it solely to get his attention, but because All you need is His love, a husband is a blessing. If you're dressing inappropriately, no wonder every jerk in the general area is seeking after you. Love the lord with all of your heart, because He's the best relationship you'll ever be in.

Guys : you guys have some different temptations from us gal's, and I know I have no idea how much of a challenge it is. But I'd just like to say this as a Girl, When we see someone who loves the Lord with All of their heart, and yes, you're going to struggle, we're all sinners, but you're trying with the Lord. You seek Him first, over the 'hot' girl that all your friends are talking about - You're like a light in a dark room. There aren't a lot of you willing to stand up and be a real man, a leader. Girls treasure that way more than you'll ever understand. Wait for us, cause we're waiting for you.

This post has been all over the place, sorry about that. I'm kinda just venting, actually. I'm learning more and more in myself and with Christ, who He wants me to be. He's got all this under control, but He'll always be my First Love.