Yesterday at Catalina de Bani I met a girl EXACTLY like me. To the tee. Were even reading the same book at the same time. She feels exactly the same about missions, people, the US and Spanish. It was so awesome to hear the same desires coming from someone else. So I guess I'm not crazy!
Last night, on the other hand, hurt a little bit. I'm really praying about direction in the area of missions, I'm becoming so attached to people and this life, to the point i've had nightmares every night about somehow leaving early, being trapped in the US, etc. I wake up in a panic all the time. I don't know how i can go back 'home'.
I'm broken over a few things, to be honest. I need direction and clarity, please please pray that I seek God first and everyone else second. My heart is fickle and changes constantly. I need the Lord, period. All I want is to know Him more, live for Him now. I've spent too much for my life confused, lost, hurt, and ultimately unhappy. There is NOTHING good in this world that lasts or satisfies. Yeah, fun for a bit, but Absolutely nothing compares.
I want Him and only Him. Show me your glory.
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