Follow Me.

1 Peter 2:21 (Amplified Bible)

For even to this were you called [it is inseparable from your vocation]. For Christ also suffered for you, leaving you [His personal] example, so that you should follow in His footsteps.

Matthew 10:38 (Amplified Bible)

And he who does not take up his cross and follow Me [cleave steadfastly to Me, conforming wholly to My example in living and, if need be, in dying also] is not worthy of Me.

Matthew 16:24-26 (Amplified Bible)

Then Jesus said to His disciples, If anyone desires to be My disciple, let him deny himself [disregard, lose sight of, and forget himself and his own interests] and take up his cross and follow Me [cleave steadfastly to Me, conform wholly to My example in living and, if need be, in dying, also].

For whoever is bent on saving his [temporal] life [his comfort and security here] shall lose it [eternal life]; and whoever loses his life [his comfort and security here] for My sake shall find it [life everlasting].

For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his life [his blessed life in the kingdom of God]? Or what would a man give as an exchange for his [blessed] life [in the kingdom of God]?

• I'm a coward.
• I'm selfish.
• I'm obnoxious.
• I'm imperfect.
• I'm Lonely.
• I'm insensitive.
• I'm insecure.
• I feel imprisoned by myself.

I'm a Sinner, A sinner in the finest. How I long to just leave everything behind and follow Him.

My biggest fear is becoming my parents.

that's all.

I've got a sneaking suspicion hindsight only favors good vision.

Last night I saw Lauren Schlademan. And she, yet again, was a ray of glorious God-given sunshine. Over the last two weeks I've decided something. Something I thought I was in control of - I thought I liked a boy. Sweet, funny, cute, to say the least. Distraction. Recently this week he's been pursuing me back, or so we thought. It felt absolutely wonderful, being cared for, or even looked at differently over other girls - Special.

Spoiler : I ended up frustrated, hurt, and lonelier than when I started all this madness.

A combination of missing someone [aka loneliness], not being too close with the Lord, and longing to be desired brought me to this dangerous place. The saying, 'The Woman's mind is the Devil's playground,' would fit here quite perfectly. One thought can get the best of me. I justified his relationships, I accepted his struggles, desires, and actions and just simply shrugged it off - Because hey, if I wanted to be selfish and I wanted to be cared for, what does it really matter, anyways? Like every relationship I've ever been in, I thought of me first - I absolutely hate that. I didn't think about him, what I was doing in flirting back, texting back, pursuing him back, no matter how indirect it might have been.

I needed my girl.

And I needed my God.

I honestly thank the lord so much for Lauren. She is so willing to put me in my place, no matter how painfully honest it might have to be. I needed to be put back.

Things taken from last night : 1. I need everyday with the Lord. 2. I need to keep my guard up - feelings are just that, feelings. 3. The Lord needs to own my heart, every inch, not just the small pieces. 4. And my life is His. I should have no feeling's of 'missing out', I'm pretty sure He's got me covered.

Aint it grand, how great our God is?

My prayer

Dear Lord,

Please, PLEASE give me a do-er. I will be so greatful.

Love,

Lacey

Hmmm.

Warning : I know I'm gonna get crap for this, haha. I know its cheesy, but I don't really care.

I write letters to my future husband, just talking. Like, today I prayed for you. etc etc. You could think its totally stupid, and I wasn't so sure I would even write this on here. But on my wedding day, I'll give them to him.

But I can honestly tell you I've fallen for someone I don't know yet. Who knows! maybe I do know him. But only the Lord knows that. Its silly, but I don't feel any need in looking, because I believe the Lord's got that person for me already, and all I've gotta do is sit back and relax. I mean, If I picked the person I was going to spend the rest of my life with, I really don't think I'm qualified to do that. (please review past relationships.) I constantly get the, "but if you're not looking.. how in the heck are you going to find him." See, I'm not.

Its been a big problem for me, actually. Looking. I spend more time searching and less time trusting. No makeup or hair or perfect outfit will bring my husband to me. God will. Its been something I needed to realize again, cause I'm a girl. And my heart tends to be silly sometimes.

Dating :

Very few know why I don't like it. I've made a promise, and as hard as it is to cut my heart off, I said I wouldn't date in high school. I have dated people already while being in high school, but because of that, I just saw they[the relationship] were just immature and overrated. (note: not all are, over the past year i've witnessed some awesome Christ centered, mature high school relationships. You know who you are. :))

Every single person you flirt with, [if God has this for them] Will have a spouse. Now, Remember that while you are flirting with them. I don't know about you, but it makes me feel disgusting.

Wether you're a guy or girl, think about the possibility of getting married.

Girls : we get all excited, Insert new last name here, dress shopping, etc. But can you look at your fiancee straight in the eyes and say, I waited for you, and my heart belongs to you. Its hard to look at a lot of the guys we know and say.. really? there's no hope. They're immature and really, not someone I'd ever see being a God fearing man. WELL WAIT THAN. Done. Period. If he's not what you want, Don't settle for anything less than you deserve. Look for Christ, not the cute one with flippy hair. They're there, I promise. If you're looking for a Man that loves the Lord, Be someone that man will be attracted to. If you want him to love the lord, You've gotta love the Lord even more. Not because you're doing it solely to get his attention, but because All you need is His love, a husband is a blessing. If you're dressing inappropriately, no wonder every jerk in the general area is seeking after you. Love the lord with all of your heart, because He's the best relationship you'll ever be in.

Guys : you guys have some different temptations from us gal's, and I know I have no idea how much of a challenge it is. But I'd just like to say this as a Girl, When we see someone who loves the Lord with All of their heart, and yes, you're going to struggle, we're all sinners, but you're trying with the Lord. You seek Him first, over the 'hot' girl that all your friends are talking about - You're like a light in a dark room. There aren't a lot of you willing to stand up and be a real man, a leader. Girls treasure that way more than you'll ever understand. Wait for us, cause we're waiting for you.

This post has been all over the place, sorry about that. I'm kinda just venting, actually. I'm learning more and more in myself and with Christ, who He wants me to be. He's got all this under control, but He'll always be my First Love.

:)

Ecclesiastes 7:8 - Finishing is better than starting. Patience is better than pride.

I got the largest answer to prayer today regarding the dominican republic. I love whenever I start freaking out about life, the lord shows me who He is in the small things, living each day with Him, and I'm really not in control of anything. He is so good.

but

Jesus is good.

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thats pretty much the most accurate display of what's going on in my life right now, watered down.

Goodness me.

I'm so protective.

'I've changed.'

The words 'you've changed,' Well I've heard them quite a few times over the last two years.

Today, while procrastinating school, I decided to read my own blog. Vain? possibly. I just was curious, looking back on those lovely memories and experiences. Well something really hit me, something has changed. Three weeks ago, if you told me that, I'd pull a '..what are you talking about?' But after reading over those previous posts, every single one came back to one thing : Christ. My heart was so intently in love with Him and only Him. Every day I woke up to Him! That was my priority. I never had a time in my life I had so much growth in so little time. I was awestruck. It was beautiful, and something I cherished.

But I just came to a realization : I might have changed, yes. But He hasn't. I don't have to look at those memories and say, 'oh that was just grand.' I can have that again if I just Get over myself. Goodness gracious I can't stand me sometimes. I'm holding Myself back. It makes me so angry, considering I have everything I could ever want, right?

I've got a Best friend that is absolutely amazing in every way shape and form.

I have an awesome job.

I'm finally on time with my school.

I go to church at least 2 times a week.

I could have a boyfriend If I wanted. [ew, cooties.]

I've got a great group of friends.

I've got a good family.

but

I've found the fourth reason has been my down fall. I've gotten SO comfortable at church, I really have made God just another friend, just another acquaintance. I HATE that. I could answer all your questions, I know the bible, I'm at church, I know how to worship,

but where am I? Lacey Dean, where am I with Christ? Am I in awe of His greatness, awe of how unchanging He is, WHO he is. Or have I forgotten.

I've found, I've forgotten. I've forgotten His greatness. I've forgetting His power. I've forgotten His love.

Winter camp 2010 : Hi, its nice to meet you. My Name is Jesus.

I'm falling in love with Him again, all over again.

"My heart is dry but still I'm singing, Reign Down."

I want that to be my life. I want to see Him more than anything in this whole wide world. I just want to be With HIM. UGH. [I literally just said Ugh, hence me writing it, haha.] I miss My Daddy, I miss His love. I miss His Fire. I miss surrender. I miss His smile.

I miss HIM.

This is a new beginning.

I will remain faithful and true.

I want that to be to YOU.

Trust.

My view : I don't know about you, but Trust can be a real challenge some times. I mean, we trust cars, buildings, people, plus a million other things every day, right? We trust them to do their jobs - to Work. If we trust them so easily, why in the world do we find it so hard to trust Christ? I mean, He created the whole world we trust to not fall into the universe, to stay in place, every day. He created our bodies we expect to work. He created me, Lacey Dean. But yet we somehow think we know better for ourselves. "I'm fine without God. I've made it this far." Oh really? Considering every thing you do in your daily life, the air you breathe, is a gift from God, because HE knew we'd need it? Why do we find it so strenuous to Let Go?

God's Truth :

And those who know your name put their trust in you,
for you, O Lord, have not forsaken those who seek you.

—Psalm 9:10

In you our fathers trusted;
they trusted, and you delivered them.
To you they cried and were rescued;
in you they trusted and were not put to shame.

—Psalm 22:4-5

Trust in the Lord, and do good;
dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.

Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him, and he will act.
He will bring forth your righteousness as the light,
and your justice as the noonday.

—Psalm 37:3-6

He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High
will abide in the shadow of the Almighty.
I will say to the Lord, “My refuge and my fortress,
my God, in whom I trust.”

For he will deliver you from the snare of the fowler
and from the deadly pestilence.
He will cover you with his pinions,
and under his wings you will find refuge;
his faithfulness is a shield and buckler.
You will not fear the terror of the night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in darkness,
nor the destruction that wastes at noonday.

A thousand may fall at your side,
ten thousand at your right hand,
but it will not come near you.
You will only look with your eyes
and see the recompense of the wicked.

Because you have made the Lord your dwelling place—
the Most High, who is my refuge—
no evil shall be allowed to befall you,
no plague come near your tent.

For he will command his angels concerning you
to guard you in all your ways.
On their hands they will bear you up,
lest you strike your foot against a stone.
You will tread on the lion and the adder;
the young lion and the serpent you will trample underfoot.

“Because he holds fast to me in love, I will deliver him;
I will protect him, because he knows my name.
When he calls to me, I will answer him;
I will be with him in trouble;
I will rescue him and honor him.
With long life I will satisfy him
and show him my salvation.”

—Psalm 91

The Lord is on my side; I will not fear.
What can man do to me?
The Lord is on my side as my helper;
I shall look in triumph on those who hate me.

It is better to take refuge in the Lord
than to trust in man.
It is better to take refuge in the Lord
than to trust in princes.

—Psalm 118:6-9

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.

—Proverbs 3:5-6

The fear of man lays a snare,
but whoever trusts in the Lord is safe.

—Proverbs 29:25

You will say in that day:
“I will give thanks to you, O Lord,
for though you were angry with me,
your anger turned away,
that you might comfort me.

“Behold God is my salvation;
I will trust, and will not be afraid;
for the Lord God is my strength and my song,
and he has become my salvation.”

—Isaiah 12:1-2

You keep him in perfect peace
whose mind is stayed on you,
because he trusts in you.
Trust in the Lord forever,
for the Lord God is an everlasting rock.

—Isaiah 26:3-4

What if some were unfaithful? Does their faithlessness nullify the faithfulness of God? By no means! Let God be true though every one were a liar, as it is written,

“That you may be justified in your words,
and prevail when you are judged.”

—Romans 3:3-4

Why are we So stubborn some times.

one of many : appearance.

I got a new bible.

I love love love it.

basically, these posts are just my feelings, the things I think on a regular basis, and taking Every single thought captive in Christ.

Appearance :

My view : That seems to be a real pain in the butt recently. All of my friends are absolutely stunning. I can't stand it sometimes, haha. Its something I need to personally work on, but when I get a notification from facebook saying 'you've been tagged in 13 photos', well it frightens me.

God's Truth :

1 Samuel 16:7

But the Lord said to Samuel, Look not on his appearance or at the height of his stature, for I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees; for man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.

Proverbs 31:30

Charm and grace are deceptive, and beauty is vain [because it is not lasting], but a woman who reverently and worshipfully fears the Lord, she shall be praised!

James 1:23

For if anyone only listens to the Word without obeying it and being a doer of it, he is like a man who looks carefully at his [own] natural face in a mirror;

Psalm 139:13-17

For You did form my inward parts; You did knit me together in my mother's womb.

I will confess and praise You for You are fearful and wonderful and for the awful wonder of my birth! Wonderful are Your works, and that my inner self knows right well.

My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret [and] intricately and curiously wrought [as if embroidered with various colors] in the depths of the earth [a region of darkness and mystery].

Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days [of my life] were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them.

How precious and weighty also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!

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I'm a little excited.. don't judge.

Valentines day.

you suck.

but Jesus is my valentine.

BAM.

Things on my mind at 2:53am.

Redhots.

ITS UNDERWATER. What. the heck.

My irish shasta cola mug sitting next to me.

Considering I am a creep, and was just talking to Reed, I guess you could say Reed? haha, If you see this, you know you're a creep too, you've admitted it.

I'm craving Jesus - Bad.

You don't love me. Don't use it so lightly. If only you knew what Love really meant.

I MISS LAUREN OHMYGOSH.

I'm really getting sick of snow.

Wintercamp.

I really need to go to sleep.

Blogger, I wish you were the discovery channel.

*claps hands* ..its like they were MADE FOR THIS.

I haven't gotten a good yummy hug in a while. Hm, withdraw.

Alexis Ramirez. Hey, I miss her, alright?

I need to pick a date for my wedding. Thinking May?

Who needs a monkey in the middle when you have a moppy headed greek.

My butt hurts from sitting in this chair.

hmm.. Autotrader.*

I need to sleep.

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Giggles and hugs.

Satan is a little piece of crap - I'm just gonna be frank and say it.

I can't stand his heart, if he has one.

He's trying to get me off track when it comes to the commitment I made to the Lord.

Guess what bud,

My God rises from the Dead.

He already beat you.

shabam.

we win.

For you mommy, enjoy.

Five months of work, and I still haven't made a dent. But we'll get there. You need this more than I could ever describe. I hope you can enjoy it.

Your Name is Glorious.

Winter camp :

I love my girls.

They are absolutely wonderful, Perfect and a huge blessing.

The messages were indescribable,

but I can honestly say seeing those kids turn and set their hearts on fire with in a series of 48 hours was the greatest reward I have ever experienced in my life thus far.

I'll have a picture up soon.

Breathe.

Joel 2:12

Therefore also now, says the Lord, turn and keep on coming to Me with all your heart, with fasting, with weeping, and with mourning [until every hindrance is removed and the broken fellowship is restored].

Tomorrow.

junior high camp

I'm

getting

so

extremely

nervous.

Fasting tomorrow to focus my heart, I can't wait to honor and worship the Lord by pouring out into these girls. I just want to make sure its not ME I'm pouring out.

I constantly remind myself of the truth of this song :

Empty me of the selfishness inside
Every vain ambition and the poison of my pride
And any foolish thing my heart holds to
Lord empty me of me so I can be Filled with YOU.

Pray for me, please.

Monday, january 18th, 2010.

honoring parents when they don't deserve it.. HARD task, but doable.

its been a hard day.

Jeremiah 13:17

But if you do not listen, I will weep in secret because of your pride; my eyes will weep bitterly, overflowing with tears, because the LORD's flock will be taken captive.

I love this verse.

Abba

Its been about 7 months since we left the Dominican Republic, and to tell you the truth I feel like I never got my heart back. I left it in Sonia's Orphanage. I literally can't express the feelings I have towards the Dominican as a whole. I can honestly look back and say the day at Sonia's was one of the most treasured I've had thus far. It set my heart on fire, and even till this day, its still ablaze.

Missions is what I really feel the Lord is calling me to. Some people reading this know this isn't the first blog I've written about the subject, but its the closest topic to my heart.

I have never felt so close to the Lord than when I'm cleaning up trash or playing with those kids, sharing the Good News. I want that to be my whole life. I'm constantly reminded by my mother that the life style I'm choosing (The life the Lord is calling me to) isn't going to be glamorous, it won't be easy. I'm well aware of the risks as well as the rewards. The Lord is constantly showing me missionaries as well as books and great stories of the past that prove my mother's fears quite well. But My God raises from the Dead. He'll protect me and lead me where He wants me, not where safety is, but where NEED is.

I, by no means, want my life to be my own, and its a daily battle to die to self. Living in a lifestyle surrounded by the world constantly toys with my mind. I start to remember the life I had, the people I knew, the experiences that changed me forever, and a piece of me longs for that again. That piece of me is a little thing I like to call my Flesh. If only it wasn't there, that would be the day. My heart longs to live for Christ, to stand up for Him like He stood up for me, but like Paul says in Romans 7:14-20,

"We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it."

The things my heart longs for tends to be different from what I say, and do, ultimately reflecting on my relationship with Christ - showing who my strength is, who I'm trying to Please. My heart literally hurts when I realize I could possibly be turning someone off to the Gospel due to my poor example, them missing out on the greatest gift ever known to mankind.

That in and of itself should help me change, right? Wrong. We're still sinners, no matter how hard we try, we Still continue to make mistakes. But making mistakes and making Excuses for mistakes are two totally different boats.

The Lord longs to be gracious to us, literally Longs. (Isaiah 30:18) The word 'Longs' literally means 'To have an earnest, heartfelt desire, especially for something beyond reach.' Its far beyond our reach, but not His.

When I think about the next ten years of my life, a few things come to mind : I have no idea. I have a plan of what I could do, what I want to do, and what I'm capable of doing, but ultimately,tomorrow isn't my own. I keep reminding myself I really have no control over my life, and hey, I'm perfectly fine with that. Right now, at 1:11 AM, the Lord knew I would be writing these very words, isn't that awesome? He constantly blows my mind.

Who knows tomorrow, the rest of my life, my future husband, my hope in missions, my support, my everything?

The Big man himself, I like to call him ABBA.

temptation

Definitions of temptation:

something that seduces or has the quality to seduce

the desire to have or do something that you know you should avoid; "he felt the temptation and his will power weakened"

enticement: the act of influencing by exciting hope or desire; "his enticements were shameless"

Working at Old navy :

Im constantly reminded of the life I used to live. The 'fun' I used to have. Its hard moving on, but I want to.

and Jesus will help.

Isaiah 46:4

"Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you; I will sustain you and I will rescue you."

1:07 Am

Things on my mind at 1:07 AM.

• I actually did some school today! Thats new.
• its too cold, If only I had a snuggie..
• www.redhots.com
• Jesus.
• Water would be nice.
• The facebook chat sound.
• I really miss some people.
• Engagement.
• Lalaaa
• Facebook chat sound really is annoying.
• Reunion at Jamie's homecoming. Night made.
• Nothing is really on my mind, actually.
• Friday is too far.
• LUCY
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• I kissed dating goodbye.
• Paintball, I want to paintball.
• Creepers.

Beach week.

thats pretty much it.

Uneventful, nonetheless, hopefully that will change.

Procrastination.

1. Self-Downing - this happens when you continually minimize your own skills and abilities and express doubt about your ability to succeed. A person who habitually puts himself down tends to disbelieve himself even when he is successful: it was “just dumb luck.” In addition, he may also find it hard to accept praise and compliments for work performed - false modesty. (“Wow, you did so well on the exam!” “Oh, I just lucked out; I really didn't know it all that well.”)
   
   The trouble with self-downing is that, given a long enough time, the person will actually come to believe that he is incapable of certain levels of achievement.
   
   Self-downing results in procrastination because the person who is uncomfortable with success will seek ways to become less successful and less visible. Turn in that important quarterly report late, and soon success will fade. (“Why did they fire you?” “I told them all along I couldn't sustain the pace, and see! I was right. I can't work at that level.”)
   
   

   How to resolve:

   • practice accepting compliments about your work performance by simply saying "Thank you."
   • Figure out why you feel uncomfortable with success. Did significant others in your life often make you feel that way? Were you taught to minimize your success? Why is success so scary? Will it make you stand out in the crowd? Do you feel as though others will not accept you if you are successful?
   • Remember to compliment and praise yourself for work accomplished.

The Inner Workings of Procrastination

A = Activating Event. The activating event is whatever you are putting off, such as studying, tests or unpleasant tasks.

B = Belief System. These are your "hidden" feelings about the task; your feelings govern your motivation. If you have negative feelings, you will tend to put off or delay. These feelings control your response.

C = Consequence. This is what we actually do. There are two approaches: rational and irrational. A rational response is "I don't like writing papers at all, but I had better get going on it anyway." An irrational approach is "I hate writing papers, and even though it's due next week, I'll start it later."

The fact is, all tasks are really neutral. Examine your belief system, understand why you dislike the task, then change your way of thinking.

Steps to the Cure

1. Realize you are delaying something unnecessarily.
2. Discover the real reasons for your delay. List them.
3. Dispute those real reasons and overcome them. Be vigorous.
4. Begin the task.

Practice What You've Learned

• Think of one thing you are currently procrastinating in, and write it on the line below. It might be personal, school or work-related.
• Now write all the reasons for your delay. This may take five or ten minutes because some of them are really hidden from you. These reasons are the controlling influences. Write down as many as possible.
• In the "Arguments Against Delay" column, argue against all the reasons for delay in a convincing manner. If you can argue against them successfully, you will be able to start the task.

http://sas.calpoly.edu/asc/ssl/procrastination.html

Welcome to my life.

2010.

the summary of 2009.

January : Will and Amy. Sucked big time.
February : Wintercamp was awesome. Distracted by a person there. Went right back home to my sinful self.
March : Got a boyfriend. Really happy.
April : got cheated on, lost a boyfriend. Sad. Started getting into the wrong things.
May : stupidly took that boy back. Birthday, finally 16. Happy, yet so extremely lost. Missed the lover of my soul, started to come out of the wrong crowd.
June : relationship's no-no's. FINALLY beachweek. God showed me who He was, who He continued to be even when I was lost, and showed me HE was the only relationship I need.
Broke up with boyfriend. Relieved.
July : Went to the Dominican republic - life changed forever. Met my best friend.
August : Major decisions, some of which I regret, but hey, God knew whats up. Hung out this girl who I thought was pretty cool, met her the last day of the DR. Life changed.
September : bittersweet departure from the life I knew. Permit.
October : Terror maze! met some of the greatest people.
November : stressing about school. playground. Got a great job :) Thanksgiving. BLACKFRIDAY. ugh, worst day ever.
December : ICM banquet. Procrastination. christmas! :D new years aid, good month. Jesus constantly calling me back.

New year, new friendships, same jesus. Pretty excited.