Wednesday, September 30, 2009

This is Love.

"Love is patient,

love is kind.

It does not envy,

it does not boast,

it is not proud. It is not rude,

it is not self-seeking,

it is not easily angered,

it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil

but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects,

always trusts,

always hopes,

always perseveres.

Love never fails."

1 Corinthians 13:4-8


Just think about this : God is love.

Have you ever thought, this is God's love for Us? This is His feelings towards Us? Why would God tell us to love one way, If He loved another?


Sunday, September 27, 2009

HAHAHAHA.

HAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA,

Your a jerk.

Im SO glad I'm done with you.

:D

Alright awesome, goodbye.

[Some people are SO rude, it never ceases to amaze me how stupid this one is.]



..but yes, Jesus still loves him.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

Lalalaaa.

I've gotten the privilege to hang out with Lauren Schlademan two days this week.
I adore her. Half of the pictures I have on this blog were taken by her.
:)

We went to Sam's Game, which he did AWESOME
:) with Sandy, Thomas, Thomas' brother? I couldn't tell if he was trying to trick me! Well, It was a lot of fun, even though THOMAS IS MEAN TO MY WOMAN. He better watch his back, that boy.
My sign beats your sign.

Lalalalaa, Good day.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

"Those who seek Me, Find Me."

I don't quite know how to say this, but last night I was listening to pastor Graham Cooke, Whom I absolutely adore, and this is the result. Who I want to be, more then anything.

I want to be Nothing without You.
I want to see You in Everything.
I want to see Your Glory.
I want to be Your Warrior.
I want to be Your Bride.
I want to be Strong in Your Strength.
I want to love like You love.
I want to live In you.
I want to never be content, but always seeking growth.
I want to be Your Daughter.
I want to make You smile.
I want to see Your heart.
I want to seek Your plan.
I want to Trust You.
I want to live out Your promises.
I want to have a broken heart, when Yours is.
I want to find Joy, Only in You.
I want to Seek You.
I want to Love You Back.
I want to feel Your Love.
I want You as my portion Forever.
I want Your Hands to Guide me.
I Want to Please You.
I want to Serve You.
I want to Fight for You.
I want to Fight With you.
I want to further Your Kingdom.
I want You to be my everything.
I want To encourage others.
I want to be like You.
I want to talk to You.
I want to answer Your call.
I want to Listen.
I want to Give.
I want to Change.
I want to Be secure In Who You are, and made me.
I want to know You made me Fearfully and Wonderfully.
I want to bring You Praise.
I want to lift You Higher.
I want to Never Back Down.
I want to never Fear, but Always Rejoice.
I want to remember Your pain for Me On MY cross.
I want to love Your Children.
I want to make Disciples of All Nations.
I want to talk the talk, and Walk the Walk.
I want to Run with You, Not settle for shallowness, but closeness.
I want to give everything Up.
I want to Need You everyday.
I want to Hear, "You are Mine."
I want to Hold Your Hand.
I want You to Hold me, and Never Ever Let me Go.
I want to trust You'll Never forsake me, Like People do.
I want to never Ever be ashamed of the Gospel.
I want to be Pure.
I want to be Clean.
I want You as my Only best friend.
I want to Remember You Searched for me, Called Just for Me.
I want To make You happy.
I want to know You'll Never hurt me.
I want to make the Enemy Tired, Because the Closeness and Intimacy I have With YOU.
I want to Build Others Up, not Tear them down.

I want YOU More then anything this whole wide world could offer.

I need You.
I love you.

Show Me Your Glory.


"Know also that wisdom is sweet to your soul;
if you find it, there is a future hope for you,
and your hope will not be cut off."
Proverbs 24:14

Monday, September 21, 2009

I cant think of a title, just read it :D

"We had been doing a basketball camp for 10-15 year olds. The last day of the camp, a couple of the kids asked if we would come back the next week, and when we told them no, they all broke out into tears. As we walked away, tears welled up in my eyes. I wanted them to know the Love of God, a love much greater then I could ever give them. I wanted to turn around and tell them the truth. But I couldn't because it was Illegal to witness to a minor.
I began to sob, but God calmed me and said,"I have sent you to love these kids. Let me take care of the rest." For the next hour, I asked Him why I couldn't do it, and if I didn't do it then, how or when? All I heard from Him was Oolu, which in their native language means "sit." So I sat for about 20 Minutes. Then a young boy came to sit down next to me. He was reading a Bible in his language. He looked at me and had his finger on a verse. Although I didn't know the language, I knew what that passage said because it was John 3:16. I smiled and said,'Jesus Loves you and so do I.' The Child's face lit up and he ran off telling all the kids that Jesus loved him and so did I. It never fails that God always finds a way."
-Derek from Brazosport college.
Little passage out of the book, "My life, His mission."

I am absolutely In love with this. His heart, so willing to share Christ with those kids, but God sent him there to love them, and He'd do the rest. He was faithful to his calling, and God was faithful to His promise.


Sunday, September 20, 2009

Cowboyssssssssssssss

heres a random its-a-commercial-and-i'm-so-bored List.

-My mouth is sore, cause of excessive brushing of teeth, and redhots.
-HAHAHAH, the giants missed a field goal from the 29, failures.
- tony romo is so inconsistent, it makes me so angry. He doesn't wait for things to develop, he just does something, and throws it away. Hes good when he has time.
-skdfhkajsdfhkl
- NEWMAN IS OUT!? HE GOT HURT.. oh wait, nevermind, he's back. hahah that was fast.
-ARE YOU SERIOUS. We just got a 5 yard penalty cause apparently we were holding. Thats a Lie.
-I'm not happy at the moment.
-Our defense, is failing right now. What is this.
-Shasta cola - Most dallas players would like it, cause the name.
-I want to go watch a game in dallas s o badly.
-Jones just got 56 yards. Win.

-Yessssssssss, touchdownnnn! :D



Im gonna go watch, commercials over. Yay for football!


After the game was over -

wow. Im disappointed, we didn't play well at all. I didn't get to watch the first half due to cleaning the kitchen, but apparently we played well then. ajlskdjasd

:[

DUDE. DUDE.

Alright, so in order to understand this post, read the last one, first.

I went to frontline with some awesome people, and everything about it was SO God.

[refer to last post]

Todd Philips was saying things about God.

"Unchanging, loving, Never angry.

He wants us back."


LETS JUST SAY, I love Jesus.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

:]

Over the last week, I have felt really down and out about some sin I'm facing in my life. When I mess up, I tend to just say, 'screw it, He's angry. I don't want to be another disappointment,' and not even act upon the sins I'm facing.

Last night, I was so tired, Half asleep-half awake, I opened my bible, and the only thing I could see was,

"I am not angry. "
Isaiah 27:4


My Daddy Is Incredible.

He honestly never ceases to amaze me, or give up on me, even when I screw up.

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Im About to Scream.

This happens every single time.
Do I learn my lesson?
Guess not.
Cause I keep letting people In.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Here I am, send me.

Today, September 17th, it will be 2 months sense we left to the Dominican Republic.

That is honestly my only motivation for school, getting it done, and going into a life of missions. With all of my heart I know thats what God wants for me, how He provides for it, and just makes it happen, only He knows. I miss them, I miss those faces, I feel every day like I'm missing something, then I remember my girl. I can't describe the feelings I've felt toward this life I will hopefully jump into. I don't know how things are going to work out, or how costa rica will work, wether I just go to college first, or spend the nine months in costa rica before, I have no idea. Its all on the Lord.

My heart can't really understand the life the Lord has laid down for me. He's been providing opportunities, a life line, during every situation. He has called, given me a heart for missions ever sense the 6th grade. Even things like the people He's bringing into my life, that want to do the same thing - feel also called to missions, or a leader I have from younglife just happens to have siblings adopted from Costa rica. God is so cool.

This song changed my heart. We used to sing it in Ambleside all the time.


          I, the Lord of sea and sky,
          I have heard my people cry.
          All who dwell in dark and sin,
          My hand will save.

          I, who made the stars of night,
          I will make their darkness bright.
          Who will bear my light to them?
          Whom shall I send?


            Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
            I have heard you calling in the night.
            I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
            I will hold your people in my heart.

          I, the Lord of snow and rain,
          I have borne my people’s pain.
          I have wept for love of them.
          They turn away.

          I will break their hearts of stone,
          Give them hearts for love alone.
          I will speak my words to them.
          Whom shall I send?


            Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
            I have heard you calling in the night.
            I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
            I will hold your people in my heart.

          I, the Lord of wind and flame,
          I will send the poor and lame.
          I will set a feast for them.
          My hand will save.

          Finest bread I will provide,
          'Til their hearts be satisfied.
          I will give my life to them.
          Whom shall I send?

            Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
            I have heard you calling in the night.
            I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
            I will hold your people in my heart.

I pray with all of my heart, That will be and is MY heart. "Here am I, all of me, take my life, its all for thee." I never ever cease to be amazed by the Lord, and who he is. I don't want to make a plan for my life, something my heart craves, when it comes to missions. I want the Lord to make the Plan for my life. I never want to live a day, say something and know for a fact thats what I'm going to do. Nothing in my life is certain, because I don't even have certainty of Tomorrow. I want to live, day by day, for the Lord.

"They only made one stipulation, that we were to remember the poor, which very thing I was also eager to do." --Galatians 2:10
[saw this on Sam's profile, I feel like a creep, but Its appropriate for the subject.]

I want to go back so badly. my heart longs for it.
I can't wait to see what the Lord has.

Monday, September 14, 2009

And the perfect man goes to.. Jesus! [sorry, edward.]

This post is kind of pointless.
but here we go.

I'm having a really hard time submitting to what God has for me. Its hard for me to see something I want now, having it right in front of me, and knowing the blessing is there, if I wait.

This blog is meant partially for my last post.

Relationships are great, the good ones, that are christ centered. I can't seem to cut off my heart, its challenging. I want my view on guys to be immediately brothers, but Im kind of failing.

Alright.
Im just gonna state this.
Sorry if you read this, [you know who you are] and you're upset or offended, its true, I'm sorry.
My Last relationship was Horrible, I got into something over my head, without even realizing it. My trust has been broken a million times, and I really cant handle you, even as a friend, for a while. Your a sinner, just like me, and I know I forgive you, dealing with anger, its an issue for me. But in order for me to forgive you, I can't talk to you for a while.

Things I need to realize, [with the help of lauren schlademan]

Leviticus 19:18

" 'Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the LORD.'"


Matthew 18:15-17

"If your brother sins against you, go and show him his fault, just between the two of you. If he listens to you, you have won your brother over. But if he will not listen, take one or two others along, so that 'every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.' If he refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church; and if he refuses to listen even to the church, treat him as you would a pagan or a tax collector."

Romans 8:28

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."


Ephesians 4:26

"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,"

~~~

Im at a point of confusion, and really feel weak when it comes to this area of relationships of any kind. I know I'm not, but I feel like I tend to put guys in the place Christ Should be. Like anything being put in the place christ should be, it never meets the standard. Every relationship I've had started like this, and ended the same way. I think thats the reason I don't want to date, because I don't want to lie to myself again, or be lied to. Every girl on the planet, no matter how hard hearted she is, knows what it feels like, to feel like we're forced to dress a certain way, act a certain way, show certain things. To "be a girl." I hate it, I really do. I started thinking a lot about the area of modesty today, and this quote, shook me -

"There is one that is more in love with you than any man can ever be. You are incredibly valuable to Him, and you never need question His commitment to Him. He thinks you're beautiful in the morning without your makeup, and He'll think you're just as beautiful when you're 80. He is Christ. In you should treat Him with the loyalty and respect of a Husband. There is no need to attract a man to you - Christ will lead the right man to you. And when someone that loves you as much as Christ arranges a marriage, you may rest assured it will be far better than anything you could have done. You are His - be content there" - Didn't state his name, age 23


Whoever wrote this, Thank you. I wrote this out on a piece of paper and stuck it on my wall. My heart is in love with the last line, "You are His - Be content there." The most amazing feeling of Awe and love filled me, right where I am. My heart is content being loved completely by Jesus, His Bride. He loves me, make up or no make up, not because my clothes, not because my face or body, He loves me, because of ME.

<3


I'll just end with some truths : 1 Corinthians 8:9-13 says, “Be careful, however, that the exercise of your freedom does not become a stumbling block to the weak. For if anyone with a weak conscience sees you who have this knowledge eating in an idol’s temple, won’t he be emboldened to eat what has been sacrificed to idols? So this weak brother, for whom Christ died, is destroyed by your knowledge. When you sin against your brothers in this way and wound their weak conscience, you sin against Christ. Therefore, if what I eat causes my brother to fall into sin, I will never eat meat again, so that I will not cause him to fall.”

Romans 14:13 says, ‘ Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in your brother’s way.’

Ephesians 4:17-19 says, “ So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the softening of their hearts. Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more.”


Romans 12:1-3 says, "Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God – this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will."

Friday, September 11, 2009

I cant write down what I'm feeling, so sorry its kinda, well bad. :]

So last night, I was reading a wonderful book by the name of "I kissed dating goodbye" By Joshua Harris, and at one point, he had a quote from Ann Landers,
"Rose-colored glasses are never made in bifocals. Because Nobody wants to read the small print in dreams."

Well that made me think.

Lets take a look at the last year, dating relationship wise :

Oh goodness.

Immediately, the embarrassed, Do-we-really-have-to-go-back-there Feelings creep in.

I made a vow at the end of 7th grade that I wasn't going to date anyone for a while [personally silly things.], and kept to that, until high school hit.

can we say
Immaturity
In a nutshell?
I cant stand it.
"OH MY GOSH SHE STOLE MY BOYFRIEND I HATE HER LETS TALK BAD ABOUT HER CAUSE I THINK SHES UGLY BLAH BLAH BLAH I SECRETLY LIKE HIM."

Looking back on the relationships, I realized they shouldn't even be called that. Two people, that kind of like each other, but thats where that ended. At the time, I thought everything would be better if I had what high school told me dating was.

Holding hands in the halls.
All the girls like "aww :]"
Long phone conversations.
texting all lovey dovey.
Blah blah blah.

But when I got to the standard of what the "cute" relationship was, It wasn't anything I'd thought it'd be. I knew that wasn't for me, for now. Considering maturity levels of most guys I know, well no thanks.

At the time, I was really happy, I couldn't have been better, I saw everything through rose colored glasses, then I realized.

It was all for selfish ambition.

I didn't care about the relationship, I cared about the feelings, and when the feelings were gone, I realized where my intentions were in the first place.

Don't get me wrong, I think relationships are great, with the right intentions, and right people.
With me, I want to be able to be an uplifting sister in christ, really get to know the person, and if something comes of that, it does. But I don't want to hinder the other person at all, in any area. I want to be able to look at them and know they will be married some day, am I going to be an uplifting person and good friend, or a past regret?

Butterflies are awesome, feeling loved is great, but I find myself rarely reading the Small Print.

Its a lot harder said, then done. :[

Truth be told : Im a 16 year old girl, I have no Idea what Love is, and until I can fall in love, and be able to love that person forever [marriage], until that becomes a factor, I don't think I want to focus so much on dating. Cause If I find someone I'm crazy about, I don't want to loose him, if that makes any sense at all. Starting something I know I cant Finish.

Silly Emotions, so challenging some times.

Sunday, September 6, 2009

One, two, three, GO!

Today,I went home with Lauren Schlademan, then went to Frontline <3

Mike Kelsey was talking about how we're a church community, and what that actually meant.

Some realizations :
1.) I'm too comfortable at church, I never step out of my comfort zone.
2.) I don't really know why, But I've always felt I'm the second choice, or no one would like to meet me in the first place, so when I meet someone new, I immediately assume I'm just the 'friend of the friend.'
3.) Refer to #2, Reason I never actually am outgoing towards new people.
4.) I get too focused on the reaction.
5.) Church is a close body of people united in Christ, not like the environment of just going to the movies, go, sit with who you know or came with, leave.
6.) I have never truly been myself around some people.
7.) I want to be myself. - and not care.
8.) Everyone tends to think I'm younger then I actually am, because of the whole grade issue. But I really would like to meet some people that are serious about Christ, and MY age. Sometimes, immaturity needs to grow up. I'm 16 and 5 months, and I'm working hard so I can graduate in 2011.
9.)Feelings are feelings, not reality. They tend to change, constantly.
10.) I'm not living for an eternal perspective.
11.) I would want to be welcomed, So why aren't I a welcoming person..?
12.) Highschool Ends. Make an impression with the time we have.
13.) Next wednesday isn't a guarantee.
14.) just because someone else is outgoing, and aren't necessarily like me, doesn't mean I have to be like them in order to be friend them.
15.) Not care about judging.

Basically.

I want to be with Christ, be like Him.

[I would like to be a copy cat.]

:]

and I'm pretty sure If He walked into a room and saw someone sitting by themselves, they wouldn't be by themselves for long.

and also,

when someone is outgoing towards me, to think the Best. Because sometimes I know I can tend to be like ..well that was awkward. I would love an open mind, and to meet some new people. :]

Saturday, September 5, 2009

September the fifth, two thousand and nine.

What I woke up to -

"Lacey Mom said we have to put henry down."

It was just one of those things I just assumed I was dreaming.

I woke up, walked down stairs and walked into a room full of tears. My whole family minus Celie was sitting in the living room, crying. Then, I faced the sad realization, it wasn't a dream.

Kidney Failure.

My Mom was heart broken, we had been giving him IV's and Antibiotics for the last month, and he seemed to make a full recovery. But when the IV's and antibiotics were supposed to stop, within a matter of days Henry couldn't Walk.

My mom sat next to him on the couch, crying, and after calling another vet for a second opinion, she knew what we had to do.

My brother, Zac, threw the ball, and henry jumped up to play, but to our surprise, completely fell off the couch because the lack of strength.

I walk back in the room, henry's eyes so alive, but his body so lifeless, was lying in the middle of the floor. I asked what happened, and they told me how he fell off the couch because he wanted to play.

It didn't really hit me until we had some one on one time alone with him, he sat there, his heart beat so unsteady, his body so weak. We had made an appointment with the vet for 4:30.. It was our chance to really say goodbye. I realized this was the last time I could sit and hold him, kiss him, love him, be with him. My heart broke. I still don't fully understand the concept that hes Gone.

We went to Mclean animal Hospital after going to the park for one last time. We walked in the back door, they put us in a room and told us to say our goodbyes.

It was torture.

My mom tells us to leave so they can do the shot, I walked out of the hospital, and fell on the curb. I was balling my eyes out, and my brothers were as well.

I hear some skateboarding, turned to the side and recognized a few of them because they went to my high school. Just what I wanted to see..
Ha.

My mom and sister came out, balling, and we knew. Henry was gone.

My mom is completely crushed. She's been sitting in her room, with the lights off, crying.

Our house is missing a person.

I love you henry, Rest in Peace.

<3>









This List never ends.

Last Night, I was lying in my bed and just started writing Truths about the Lord. It opened up my heart in such amazing ways, Seeing who the Lord is, how Unchanging and True he is, Really Encouraged me. So I thought I'd Share. (:

My Father Breathes Stars.
My Daddy calms Seas.
My Poppa conquered Death.
My Best Friend Carries Me.
My Father Is worthy.
My Dad is the Savior of my Soul.
My King is the Lord of Lords.
My Dad never Ceases to Amaze me.
My Savior walks With me.
My Daddy Never leaves.
My Father protects me.
My Lord is more Real then the Breath I breathe.
My Dad holds the Earth.
My Father guides me.
My Best Friend Doesn't Judge.
My Daddy Forgives.
My Lord gives me Life.
My Father Teaches Me.
My Poppa Wins.
My Best Friend is Perfect.
My Dad called me, Chose me.
My Lord Lets me see Him.
My King has No end.
My Poppa is Trustworthy.
My Dad Never hurts me.
My Father makes me Smile.
My Savior's name is Power.
My Daddy opens doors, and Never closes them.
My Father Adopts.
My King Understands.
My Lord lets me Chose.
My Poppa Cries with me.
My Dad Crushes Evil.
My Dad promises, and Doesn't break them.
My Savior Lives.
My Pop's gives me Chills.
My King takes my Breath away.
My Savior holds me in the Palm of His Hand.
My Father Knows Every Word on my Tongue.
My Daddy Saved Me.
My King is Unchanging.
My Lord is Just.
My Poppa is sad for Those who Leave him.
My Dad Smiles On His children.
My Savior Calls me Back.
My Dad Lets me worship.
My Father is Indescribable.
My Lord gives and takes away.
My Daddy's Got me.
My Savior Knows I'm a sinner.
My Poppa Looks at me, Searches me, Purifies me.
My Father is my G.P.S.
My Dad is Beautiful.
My King Helps me.
My Savior Isn't against me.
My Lord Will Bring me to Heaven.
My Father Revives my soul.
My Daddy Saves.
My Father Gives Sight to the Blind.
My Dad heals the sick.
My King was before Time.
My Savior is Good.
My Fathers Love is better then Life.
My Dad took my Place.
My King is Strong.
My Savior Is willing.
My Daddy Runs to the Weak, who Can't run to Him.
My Poppa Loves me.
My dad is Kind.
My Daddy Knows everything.

My Lord Is everything.


Friday, September 4, 2009

Life Costs, quite a lot.

Yesterday, after leaving Miss Lauren's House, my dad decided it would be a good idea to taunt me with what I can't have, or afford.

Welcome To Carmax.

I was sitting there, looking at the prices on these cars.

Great, its about a year's worth of work in order to get a piece of CRAP.

Then it hit me.

Being on your own and an adult, must cost a FORTUNE. It scares me thinking a year and a half from now, I'm gonna have to support myself. Graduating a year early also means, leaving a year early. Commitment tends to scare me, if you haven't figured that out by now.

Its time to be smart, and start saving.

Its so intimidating.


[Most likely what my first car will resemble.]

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Earlier Yesterday, [August 31st] me and Leilah were watching haunting shows, don't ask me why, and every time it ended the same. A person come to christ and the demon left. and Every time I wasn't scared at all. I got goose bumps, knowing Jesus has the power over everything, over this darkness, I was touched

Well that night, I had a lot of caffeine, as well as just watching some pretty deep evil stuff, plus feeling so alone lately, [I know I'm not, i just think its me letting go of some people and things in my life] and it just all overflowed, I was so scared for some reason. I couldn't sleep at all. I was shaking, at one point i was like This isn't ending, its not ending, I just want it over, I just want to sleep and feel safe and I got sick, twice. It was the weirdest thing. I was praying for peace, praying for safety, I just felt so unsafe, so unsure. So many things in my life are so unsure, I need to rest in Christ. Because I don't have anything else to rest In. The whole school Issue is freaking me out, I just need to know, I know God wants me home schooling, I can feel that, I really can, so can my parents, But its me Resisting the change, the new.

I got sick for the second time, took some medicine, and walked into my sisters room. I just started crying and was like I feel so sick.

We sat and talked until the sun came up, about God, about Life, and everything under the sun.

"why do you think god whispers? He's Teaching you how to listen."

"For I am the LORD, your God,
who takes hold of your right hand
and says to you, Do not fear;
I will help you.

Do not be afraid, O Jacob,
O little Israel,
for I myself will help you," declares the LORD,
your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel."

-Isaiah 41:13-14

It was weird, I just think I've been keeping too many things in, Too many stresses, fears, and not giving them to god. I felt so vulnerable, I don't know why. It was really scary. But as soon as the sun came up, I sat and read my bible, and it really gave me that peace. I needed to fear and feel lonely in order to know I'm Never Alone.

I know now, looking on last night, what exactly happened :
I saw something, so dark, and out of my control, I lost it. I felt so unsafe because I had no power over it. BUT God does. God Created them. He let satan have the earth, but he also will never let those who are His go. He knows I can't do it, He knows I've been lost. But he promises He WILL help me, he will show me where to go, he will take hold of my hand, He WILL help me.

"But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have saved you;
I have called you by name; you are mine.

When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

For I am the LORD, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior..

Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give men in exchange for you,
and people in exchange for your life."

-Isaiah 43:1-4


This isn't just a religion, this isn't just some crazy thing I believe, this is what saved me, called me by name, given me a peace and comfort beyond my understanding. This is my heart, this is what I love with every piece of me. Call me crazy, Call me religious, call me a hypocrite, He is my Daddy and I will follow Him, Not because I'm perfect, not because I've done anything right, but Because He
L o v e s M e.

"God Opens Doors No one can close."
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