One, two, three, GO!

Today,I went home with Lauren Schlademan, then went to Frontline <3

Mike Kelsey was talking about how we're a church community, and what that actually meant.

Some realizations :

1.) I'm too comfortable at church, I never step out of my comfort zone.

2.) I don't really know why, But I've always felt I'm the second choice, or no one would like to meet me in the first place, so when I meet someone new, I immediately assume I'm just the 'friend of the friend.'

3.) Refer to #2, Reason I never actually am outgoing towards new people.

4.) I get too focused on the reaction.

5.) Church is a close body of people united in Christ, not like the environment of just going to the movies, go, sit with who you know or came with, leave.

6.) I have never truly been myself around some people.

7.) I want to be myself. - and not care.

8.) Everyone tends to think I'm younger then I actually am, because of the whole grade issue. But I really would like to meet some people that are serious about Christ, and MY age. Sometimes, immaturity needs to grow up. I'm 16 and 5 months, and I'm working hard so I can graduate in 2011.

9.)Feelings are feelings, not reality. They tend to change, constantly.

10.) I'm not living for an eternal perspective.

11.) I would want to be welcomed, So why aren't I a welcoming person..?

12.) Highschool Ends. Make an impression with the time we have.

13.) Next wednesday isn't a guarantee.

14.) just because someone else is outgoing, and aren't necessarily like me, doesn't mean I have to be like them in order to be friend them.

15.) Not care about judging.

Basically.

I want to be with Christ, be like Him.

[I would like to be a copy cat.]

:]

and I'm pretty sure If He walked into a room and saw someone sitting by themselves, they wouldn't be by themselves for long.

and also,

when someone is outgoing towards me, to think the Best. Because sometimes I know I can tend to be like ..well that was awkward. I would love an open mind, and to meet some new people. :]