So last night, I was reading a wonderful book by the name of "I kissed dating goodbye" By Joshua Harris, and at one point, he had a quote from Ann Landers,
"Rose-colored glasses are never made in bifocals. Because Nobody wants to read the small print in dreams."
Well that made me think.
Lets take a look at the last year, dating relationship wise :
Oh goodness.
Immediately, the embarrassed, Do-we-really-have-to-go-back-there Feelings creep in.
I made a vow at the end of 7th grade that I wasn't going to date anyone for a while [personally silly things.], and kept to that, until high school hit.
can we say
Immaturity
In a nutshell?
I cant stand it.
"OH MY GOSH SHE STOLE MY BOYFRIEND I HATE HER LETS TALK BAD ABOUT HER CAUSE I THINK SHES UGLY BLAH BLAH BLAH I SECRETLY LIKE HIM."
Looking back on the relationships, I realized they shouldn't even be called that. Two people, that kind of like each other, but thats where that ended. At the time, I thought everything would be better if I had what high school told me dating was.
Holding hands in the halls.
All the girls like "aww :]"
Long phone conversations.
texting all lovey dovey.
Blah blah blah.
But when I got to the standard of what the "cute" relationship was, It wasn't anything I'd thought it'd be. I knew that wasn't for me, for now. Considering maturity levels of most guys I know, well no thanks.
At the time, I was really happy, I couldn't have been better, I saw everything through rose colored glasses, then I realized.
It was all for selfish ambition.
I didn't care about the relationship, I cared about the feelings, and when the feelings were gone, I realized where my intentions were in the first place.
Don't get me wrong, I think relationships are great, with the right intentions, and right people.
With me, I want to be able to be an uplifting sister in christ, really get to know the person, and if something comes of that, it does. But I don't want to hinder the other person at all, in any area. I want to be able to look at them and know they will be married some day, am I going to be an uplifting person and good friend, or a past regret?
Butterflies are awesome, feeling loved is great, but I find myself rarely reading the Small Print.
Its a lot harder said, then done. :[
Truth be told : Im a 16 year old girl, I have no Idea what Love is, and until I can fall in love, and be able to love that person forever [marriage], until that becomes a factor, I don't think I want to focus so much on dating. Cause If I find someone I'm crazy about, I don't want to loose him, if that makes any sense at all. Starting something I know I cant Finish.
Silly Emotions, so challenging some times.
Frontline Service - Love Logic from Nate Reed on Vimeo.
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