And the perfect man goes to.. Jesus! [sorry, edward.]

This post is kind of pointless.

but here we go.

I'm having a really hard time submitting to what God has for me. Its hard for me to see something I want now, having it right in front of me, and knowing the blessing is there, if I wait.

This blog is meant partially for my last post.

Relationships are great, the good ones, that are christ centered. I can't seem to cut off my heart, its challenging. I want my view on guys to be immediately brothers, but Im kind of failing.

Alright.

Im just gonna state this.

Sorry if you read this, [you know who you are] and you're upset or offended, its true, I'm sorry.

My Last relationship was Horrible, I got into something over my head, without even realizing it. My trust has been broken a million times, and I really cant handle you, even as a friend, for a while. Your a sinner, just like me, and I know I forgive you, dealing with anger, its an issue for me. But in order for me to forgive you, I can't talk to you for a while.

Things I need to realize, [with the help of lauren schlademan]

Leviticus 19:18

" 'Do not seek revenge or bear a grudge against one of your people, but love your neighbor as yourself. I am the LORD.'"

Matthew 18:15-17

"If your brother sins against you, go and show him his fault, just between the two of you. If he listens to you, you have won your brother over. But if he will not listen, take one or two others along, so that 'every matter may be established by the testimony of two or three witnesses.' If he refuses to listen to them, tell it to the church; and if he refuses to listen even to the church, treat him as you would a pagan or a tax collector."

Romans 8:28

"^{And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."}

Ephesians 4:26

"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,"

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Im at a point of confusion, and really feel weak when it comes to this area of relationships of any kind. I know I'm not, but I feel like I tend to put guys in the place Christ Should be. Like anything being put in the place christ should be, it never meets the standard. Every relationship I've had started like this, and ended the same way. I think thats the reason I don't want to date, because I don't want to lie to myself again, or be lied to. Every girl on the planet, no matter how hard hearted she is, knows what it feels like, to feel like we're forced to dress a certain way, act a certain way, show certain things. To "be a girl." I hate it, I really do. I started thinking a lot about the area of modesty today, and this quote, shook me -

"There is one that is more in love with you than any man can ever be. You are incredibly valuable to Him, and you never need question His commitment to Him. He thinks you're beautiful in the morning without your makeup, and He'll think you're just as beautiful when you're 80. He is Christ. In you should treat Him with the loyalty and respect of a Husband. There is no need to attract a man to you - Christ will lead the right man to you. And when someone that loves you as much as Christ arranges a marriage, you may rest assured it will be far better than anything you could have done. You are His - be content there" - Didn't state his name, age 23

Whoever wrote this, Thank you. I wrote this out on a piece of paper and stuck it on my wall. My heart is in love with the last line, "You are His - Be content there." The most amazing feeling of Awe and love filled me, right where I am. My heart is content being loved completely by Jesus, His Bride. He loves me, make up or no make up, not because my clothes, not because my face or body, He loves me, because of ME.

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I'll just end with some truths : 1 Corinthians 8:9-13 says, “Be careful, however, that the exercise of your freedom does not become a stumbling block to the weak. For if anyone with a weak conscience sees you who have this knowledge eating in an idol’s temple, won’t he be emboldened to eat what has been sacrificed to idols? So this weak brother, for whom Christ died, is destroyed by your knowledge. When you sin against your brothers in this way and wound their weak conscience, you sin against Christ. Therefore, if what I eat causes my brother to fall into sin, I will never eat meat again, so that I will not cause him to fall.”

Romans 14:13 says, ‘ Therefore let us stop passing judgment on one another. Instead, make up your mind not to put any stumbling block or obstacle in your brother’s way.’

Ephesians 4:17-19 says, “ So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the softening of their hearts. Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, with a continual lust for more.”

Romans 12:1-3 says, "Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God’s mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God – this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is – his good, pleasing and perfect will."