Here I am, send me.

Today, September 17th, it will be 2 months sense we left to the Dominican Republic.

That is honestly my only motivation for school, getting it done, and going into a life of missions. With all of my heart I know thats what God wants for me, how He provides for it, and just makes it happen, only He knows. I miss them, I miss those faces, I feel every day like I'm missing something, then I remember my girl. I can't describe the feelings I've felt toward this life I will hopefully jump into. I don't know how things are going to work out, or how costa rica will work, wether I just go to college first, or spend the nine months in costa rica before, I have no idea. Its all on the Lord.

My heart can't really understand the life the Lord has laid down for me. He's been providing opportunities, a life line, during every situation. He has called, given me a heart for missions ever sense the 6th grade. Even things like the people He's bringing into my life, that want to do the same thing - feel also called to missions, or a leader I have from younglife just happens to have siblings adopted from Costa rica. God is so cool.

This song changed my heart. We used to sing it in Ambleside all the time.

I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard my people cry.
All who dwell in dark and sin,
My hand will save.

I, who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear my light to them?
Whom shall I send?


Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have borne my people’s pain.
I have wept for love of them.
They turn away.

I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak my words to them.
Whom shall I send?


Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will send the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them.
My hand will save.

Finest bread I will provide,
'Til their hearts be satisfied.
I will give my life to them.
Whom shall I send?

Here I am, Lord. Is it I, Lord?
I have heard you calling in the night.
I will go, Lord, if you lead me.
I will hold your people in my heart.

I pray with all of my heart, That will be and is MY heart. "Here am I, all of me, take my life, its all for thee." I never ever cease to be amazed by the Lord, and who he is. I don't want to make a plan for my life, something my heart craves, when it comes to missions. I want the Lord to make the Plan for my life. I never want to live a day, say something and know for a fact thats what I'm going to do. Nothing in my life is certain, because I don't even have certainty of Tomorrow. I want to live, day by day, for the Lord.

"They only made one stipulation, that we were to remember the poor, which very thing I was also eager to do." --Galatians 2:10

[saw this on Sam's profile, I feel like a creep, but Its appropriate for the subject.]

I want to go back so badly. my heart longs for it.

I can't wait to see what the Lord has.